so far, its been a most amazing break. i made a unexpected friend today and she really opened my eyes to the beauty around me. its amazing how in tune with the raw beauty people can be. i am definitly looking foward to hanging out with her.

a big topic over dinner for us was fear and art and the relation between those two. fear can totally paralyze art, and shes incredibly talented, but continues to find herself scared. it was just such a raw and amazing conversation we had.

we went to a going away party for one of her friends and everyone sat around decorating cookies, listening to folk music, and playing their own. i got into some good conversations about various bands...
after everyone had taken their turned and piddled around on the mandolin it was handed off to me, despite my objections. my friend reminded me about fear and art. so i just let go and learned a few chord progressions and played a little. it was nice.

i think i get to caught up in results. and the reaction things will get. there is no imperfection. imperfection is a lie we buy into. not everything we do has to be done for others.


im gonna let go.